Patience, People

So the reason I titled my blog "Patience" is because it is something I have to work on. Badly. I get so frustrated with situations, other people, and myself. I'll explain.

Situations

When things don't go my way, I get so frustrated. Especially if I've made a plan in my head? UGH! That's all it takes. If there is a plan in my head, and things play out differently than I was imagining, sometimes I can pretend it will be okay. But I'm always thinking, What the heck! What happened? Why is everything going wrong? That's exactly it. Not, oh well, it will be okay. Not at all. And THAT gets frustrating. I wish things would always pan out the way I want them to in the time I want them to.

Other People

Oh man. Certain people just make me angry. Just being around them can make me mad. Doesn't matter what they do or say, but when they open their mouth, that's when I get frustrated! Shut your pie hole! Agh! And they never stop. Telling me things I already know, telling me to do stuff I've already done. Anything like that. And it's so annoying. And I can't get over it. I don't know why.

Myself

This is the biggest thing. I beat up on myself so much. In every part of my life, I want to be better. My prayer life, my athletics, my sincerity, my appreciation, my love, my self-control, etc! Anything! I would give so much to be better at these things. And I get so down on myself when I can't accomplish that. Or when I can't do these things to at least what I think I'm capable of. Does that make sense? I just hate it! I wish that I could just move on and work on getting better. But I don't. I usually just sit and..do nothing. I have lost so much self-motivation. It's killing me.